Nothing but respect for my little lesbian intern !
Back in January,Reneé Rappmade herSaturday Night Livedebut as a musical guest alongside the episode’s host,Jacob Elordi. And, as musical guests sometimes do, she made a fun little cameo in a sketch during the show.
During the sketch titled “Entertainment TonightLip-Readers,” Reneé publicly came out as a lesbian for the very first time. Cast memberBowen Yangintroduced Reneé — who played herself — as a “little lesbian intern.” Previously, Reneé had identified asbisexual.
In an interview withThem, Reneé opened up about the experience, revealing that coming out on air was actually a last-minute decision. She approachedSNLwriter Celeste Yim backstage, asking to change “bisexual intern” — which was originally written in the script — to “gay intern.”
“They were so sweet — and obviously, they were going to be so sweet. But to me, I was thinking about being so afraid to publicly change my identity. I didn’t want anybody to be upset with me," she said of the experience. Reneé, who’d essentially been unofficially crowned as a bi-icon on the internet, was hesitant about switching the label publicly, fearful doing so would “make bisexual people feel shitty,” and that referring to herself as “gay” would prompt backlash from fellow queer people who felt like she was inappropriately using the label. “I felt so wrapped up and scared.”
Reneé — having privately identified as a lesbian for some time — came to the realization when she found herself amongst a mostly-queer friend group during a previous relationship. “All of a sudden, I had these people around me who were either nonbinary people, trans friends, or lesbians, and I was like, ‘I feel so happy when I’m with you guys. And I also really want to call myself a lesbian when I’m around you.’”
Still, though, the singer felt pressure to be certain about her sexuality, feeling the pull between the “lesbian” identity she found herself drawn to and the importance of not invalidating her bisexuality. “When you’re bisexual, you almost want to prove yourself, so I thought it was kind of that," she explained. “But it came to be that, no, I’m actually just gay like that.”
Ultimately, Reneé phoned a friend about what she should do onSNL, and they encouraged her to come out on the show. So, she asked to change the script one last time, calling herself a “little lesbian intern.” And the rest is gay history.
After the episode, she revealed that she stayed off her phone for a few days, saying, “I was so fucking terrified and felt so shitty, but then it was just, like, a thing, and it felt good.”
You can watch the fullSNLsketch below and read her full Them profilehere:
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Nothing but respect for my little lesbian intern!
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